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and won't like me only after he has liked my friends or been rejected by them.
always feeling second best
you think you're ready for something; but really, you're not.
repeat,
repeat,
repeat.
honestly, if you're not brittany or amanda or don't take advantage of me like todd, then don't bother trying to hang.
i make things awkward, because if i do it on purpose, it won't be so strange when it really is awkward.
some guy told me i was a bitch yesterday because of the following conversation:
me: "you pretty much hate your job unless you're something fun, like a clown."
retard: "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT. CLOWNS HATE THEIR JOBS DUHH."
me: "yeah fuckin right. i knew this kid in high school who rode a unicycle to school EVERYDAY because he wanted to be a clown. he even had special snow tires for that shit. his parents were clowns and he was gonna graduate and go to some special clown school to be one too."
retard: "you're a fuckin bitch. i'll fuck you up."
i get at least one friend request a day from some random 30 year old guy that takes weird creepy myspace webcam pics and rides dirt bikes and is going through a mid-life crisis and can't score any chicks and probably just wants to try out the first thing i typed on this blog anyway ^^^^
someone wrote juggalo on a napkin in my room and left it there.
maybe i should really become a juggalo.
the only guy i've ever really loved thinks i'm a total dbag.
ugh, fuck it.
>:[ !!!!
"Do I need to be liked? Absolutely not. I like to be liked, I enjoy being liked, I have to be liked, but it's not my compulsive need to be liked. Like my need to be praised."
(In a branch meeting)
"You are creative. You are damn creative. Each and every one of you. You are so much more creative than all the other dry, boring morons that you work with."
"All right, let me ask you this. Tell me if you think this is creative. When I was five, I imagined that there was such thing as a unicorn. And this is before i even heard of one or seen one. I just drew a picture of a horse that could fly over rainbows and had a huge spike in its head. I was five, five years old...couldn't even talk yet."
"You cannot take the hilarious black guy from the office. Stanley is part of of what makes the office so extraordinary. The bluesy wisdom. The sassy remarks. The crossword puzzles, his smile, those big watery red eyes. I don't know how George Bush did it when Colin Powell left."
"What am I doing? I am blowing dodge. I'm getting out of town. Whatever you call it, I am running away from my responsibilities. It feels good."
"A bunch of guys in a tent making s'mores.... Here's the thing. That's not how you go camping. I think you go camping by yourself in the wilderness. It's not with a group of guys frolicking around in tents."
"Is there a God? If not, what are all these churches for? And who is Jesus's dad?"
tall, dark hair.
can make me laugh and is laid back, but not lazy. Won't mind i smell like smoke all the time, can put up with my veganism.
lolololol.
speaking of funny shows- new show by the creators of arrested development: sit down and shut up.
anyone seen it?
why do i love cartoons.
HEEELLLLLOOOOOOO.
and that the world really does revolve around money if you let it.
and that you should think before you say, or type, whatever you'd like.
people are tacky as fuck.
and you still can't take a hint!
except for i could still be really close with brittany and amanda.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LIFE.
yes, yes, yes, yes, YES.
I DONT WANT YOU TO PUSH YOUR BELIEFS ON ME
I DONT WANT YOU TO TREAT MY FRIENDS LIKE SHIT
I DONT WANT TO BE IN RENO
I DONT WANT TO LIVE A LIFE FOLLOWING RULES AND BEING FORCED INTO SOMETHING IM NOT
I DONT BELIEVE IN GOD
I DONT WANT ANY OF YOU TO CARE ABOUT ME
i expect to be a disappointment
i am not going to listen to what you have to say
i am going to do what i want
i am going to live my life for today and not tomorrow
set a date, i'm not coming back.
at least a grand to be semi-cozy and comfortable and thats with being able to find a job either beforehand or asap when i get down there.
and i also need to post a missed connections.
maybe then i wouldn't be destined for a life of loneliness (excluding my 800 catz)
or maybe if i didn't get my hopes up all the time, i wouldn't always get so bummed.
fuck it.
i'm glad my friends aren't brain washed freaks like that.
JESUS!
